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What do you do when you have a day off?
Posted on Oct 30th, 2008
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Kaiya
Kaiya
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for October 30, 2008:
A tremendous evolution has happened within me since I chose to never have to take a day off again.
Its been nine years now. I'm torn between sounding a little bratty, and wat to assert.... that this works.
You know the feeling of choosing to stay home on a day when you really do not want to work Well I simply figured that feeling is happening in me... so I can keep it running, as long as I eat and feel war enough.
Granted I've been on food stanps, slept on the streets a couple of times, and been colder than need be, lacking heat or money to buy it... but I have more faith in this feeling of freedo than I've ever had.
It all rests in the wish for CO-creation in my universe there is no such thing as MANifestation the eerie sense that we are supposed to simply make the world be what we want, exatly what we want.
I figure I'm not smart enough to choose the best path for me, so I put out some feelers and ask Gaia to embellish on them
An old friend used to call it a verses... creation, where he painted a canvass for a while, and the passed it to a friend to paint it. The fried could paint over ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING. Or just add a couple of dots... and then pass it back.
Well they did this three times a piece or so and allowed each other to paint and rpaint, change and change back, in a non verbal artistic conversation.
THIs is How I crete with Gaia.
Funny thing is she sees to lead me through all m fears. That is the surrender of it ,that I DO end up in dicey situations, without what I need, or think I need. Without the protetions I need or think I need. And then I give in a little deeper, and I don't have a roof, but damnit it was very free. Fear lingering all the time, but it is so free.
and here I am ine years later, with checks randomnly appearing and a man once walking up to my door and offering two grand for ONE AY of using our house, to shoot a ridiculous ly dumn commercial for a football game.
But it paid off all the blls.
What do I do on my day off? I take every day off. I do A lot of Yoga, I play in it and enjoy it, whether it be a fast day, or a meditative day with stillness and the testing into new pose edges.
I play music. Ltos of it trance like singing to the rhythm of a flow, alowing the words to build and change with me. It really does feel like the future. At least I get to go, with the flow, into living music that is never ever the sae, and comes through like a prayer for love beond anything I can think, till I go into it.
I eat siple foods of the land, of the season whenever possible.
I breathe a lot.
Much Love,
Kaiya
Its been nine years now. I'm torn between sounding a little bratty, and wat to assert.... that this works.
You know the feeling of choosing to stay home on a day when you really do not want to work Well I simply figured that feeling is happening in me... so I can keep it running, as long as I eat and feel war enough.
Granted I've been on food stanps, slept on the streets a couple of times, and been colder than need be, lacking heat or money to buy it... but I have more faith in this feeling of freedo than I've ever had.
It all rests in the wish for CO-creation in my universe there is no such thing as MANifestation the eerie sense that we are supposed to simply make the world be what we want, exatly what we want.
I figure I'm not smart enough to choose the best path for me, so I put out some feelers and ask Gaia to embellish on them
An old friend used to call it a verses... creation, where he painted a canvass for a while, and the passed it to a friend to paint it. The fried could paint over ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING. Or just add a couple of dots... and then pass it back.
Well they did this three times a piece or so and allowed each other to paint and rpaint, change and change back, in a non verbal artistic conversation.
THIs is How I crete with Gaia.
Funny thing is she sees to lead me through all m fears. That is the surrender of it ,that I DO end up in dicey situations, without what I need, or think I need. Without the protetions I need or think I need. And then I give in a little deeper, and I don't have a roof, but damnit it was very free. Fear lingering all the time, but it is so free.
and here I am ine years later, with checks randomnly appearing and a man once walking up to my door and offering two grand for ONE AY of using our house, to shoot a ridiculous ly dumn commercial for a football game.
But it paid off all the blls.
What do I do on my day off? I take every day off. I do A lot of Yoga, I play in it and enjoy it, whether it be a fast day, or a meditative day with stillness and the testing into new pose edges.
I play music. Ltos of it trance like singing to the rhythm of a flow, alowing the words to build and change with me. It really does feel like the future. At least I get to go, with the flow, into living music that is never ever the sae, and comes through like a prayer for love beond anything I can think, till I go into it.
I eat siple foods of the land, of the season whenever possible.
I breathe a lot.
Much Love,
Kaiya
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