If you meditate on it, you'll realize that this distribution, this 'tuning' of the chakras leaves a red root, and a 'yellow' heart.

I have found after about two years of working with this approach, that it is possible to change the natural color of the chakras, within a range of influence. the results are... interesting.

With the red root, and the yellow heart, I find that the love is fiercer and raw. The love that tears things down because it is time to change them. the love that will end relationships, jobs and homes because love knows it has a clearer place to live and thrive.

Love always does this, but with a consciously yellow heart, it seems to be... more raw and fierce.

After a while of working like this, I am more consistently tuning my root to orange, and my heart then becomes green.

I do not believe there is a 'fixed' color for each chakra. with the standard new age way of putting the root as red, and the heart as green, the distribution is stretched out. In my experience this has functioned to SLOW THINGS DOWN.

As we all learn about the chakras as a culture, it has been appropriate to keep it with breaks on so to speak. When you allow this shift... it flows more freely.

with the root orange, some interesting things happen.

first of all, to be raw about it... there is a desire to leave 'fucking' It isn't a judgement, its a vibration. The higher fibe (higher doesn't equal beetter, just higher frequency) changes things.

so the result has been mixed. For periods my sex life has shut down almost completely. and then when it turns on, it is full of much more intense orgasms, that come from much LESS intense 'work'. Namely, less is more. By being intune with more subtle vibrations, the energy body is able to let more energy in, and out.

Its worth it : )

It does require you to be willing to abstain from sex for periods however, becuase the changes can get a little wild. basically, be gentle. meditate with the color orange in the root, and an orange yellow 'fire' in the pelvis.

Much Love

There is a dynamic. It needs to be named, so it can be more clearly recognized.

someone makes a mistake, and therefor...
it is okay to throw very nasty energy at them.

The real response to 'mistakes': mis-takes. Scenes of life that we'd prefer to take over again.... is a question.

The real 'answer' to a mistake is a question.

How can we best bring this back into rhythm?

there is surrender in this question, because the reply is different for every person, and is even different scene to scene... take to take.of life.

Thus, it is not okay to throw hate at someone for a mistake, unless that is actually the best way to help them reply.

reply, re play, change the habit or choice that created the mis take...

are hate and fear ever the best ways to help someone change?

I have accepted a lot of hatred because I am out of rhythm with others. I have taken for granted that 'I' am the problem... because after all I am usually, often... a new factor in peoples lives.

I am praying my way out of the habit... the consistent choice... to take on the rage and fear of those who resist the changes... that often accompany... me.



I live with some fear I'd like to release. I have been afraid to release it... the only thing we have to fear is fear,.... because I sense that I will not be taken seriously.

but who wants to be taken seriously all the time anyway?

I live with the fear that the practices I love, namely musical wildflowers and freestyle flow... are too intense to be received. people react against them so ofte. I FEEl fear that they tear down too much, bring too much change, that I can't handle this...

then I real eyes that the advantage of being afraid in this manner is that it builds up how 'important' and intense' these practices (I) am. It fills an ego void that is still too empty from a silly side of me...

So I go into this awesome sense of change. That I am doing well, amazingly well... then I get afraid... then I talk myself down from the fear as being egoic. Then I'm back to somewhat stable.

And yet reclusive.



I often feel like I am travelling the morphic fields of Gaia. My consciousness atunes to different frequencies, and I balance them. Once I demonstrate that I can balance them... I can 'do' a lot more. I can travel, refocus with intention... watch.

And I watch layer upon layer of Gaia. I go into some areas like a welcome guest, and others like a ninja, though I often can't tell the difference at first.

I feel it first. Then I focus on the feeling. Then I see and hear.

I wish I could prove it. It is so fucking beautiful, but even I, to myself, have doubts that I'm simply very imaginative, or...

 that a very active imagination is...

the art of watching layers of shared reality, and even learning to engage in it.

I have the distinct sense that a lot of ghosts are listening, they tell me so.

or is that 'just' my imagaination.

Con - against
Fusion - merging

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I have lived with 'confusions' in my awareness, for which I have somewhat effectively medicated myself with understanding.

It has been incomplete.

I hear so much. It rains in like a tickertape of thoughts, mostly monotone... from a whole layer of awareness that seems to be... you. the people around me. Yet very aware versions of ya'll, seeing and thinking and recognizing things I cannot. Hearing my thoughts.

Here is my emerging model of understanding.

the Hawaiians understand both a higher, and a lower self. WE live and grow in the middle mostly, and have both layers in relation to ourselves.

I believe this as wavelengths, and energy fields. There is an 'octave', a range of energy that extends from one wavelength to the wavelength twice as long...along with the waves in between, and the relationshiops between themn... this corresponds to a musical 'octave' from one note to the next higher note of the same 'letter'. C to C.

then there is a whole range below this, down to HALF the original wavelength... and a whole range above this up to TWICE the higher wavelength.

By comparison, pianos have over seven octaves.

So I believe that the range we are most attuned in, with the traditional hive senses, is the middle self. We are learnging to harness the 'lower' self, and integtate its strengths, and we are learning to be guided by the 'higher' self, and integrate its strengths.

Thie 'higher' self is, in my understanding, not 'above ' us, but a higher WAVELENGTH. the actual energy is, and has always been, within us. the challenge is to bridge it so clearly that we are functioning with it, rather than amidst confusion.

con fusion, the experience of forces pushing against each other, rather than learning to merge, and harmonize.

My sense, my intuitivon, is tis.

My chin chakra, energy center, wildflower... seems to function as a translator. If I op[ened all the receptors at once, I'd go nuts. I have tyried this, or rather, I have tried opening much more than I had before, and it really is overwhelming. But this series of steps did enable me to open MORE, and learn to channel energy through my chin. The chin 'translates it into more palatable pieces. my balance? I get this tickertape of thboughts that my own essence has somehow selectyed, or my guidance has... for me to be aware of.

It often involves very insightful glances into other peopole. I overhear YOUR thoughts. It isn't an open door scenerio. I can't CHOOSE to, and I can barely choose NOT to. But when it comes through, I get repeated examples that it is in fact the real deal.

Yet many of the 'thoughts' I hear are very very mean. I had SUCH a  difficult time with this, constantly overhearing nasty statements amidst confusion.. the warst thoughts and feelings realloy.

My perception now, is that I was diving. I was learning to focus, to refocus my consciouslness into the octave BELOW, where more primal, survival thoughts and feelings live. It isn't that this is a evil or even horrible vib ration. It isn't directly less evolved, but it is heavily focused on the body.  Along with the passions and emotions that are most challenging to cinorporate.

they are here for everyone, I just somehow got 'stuck'. and it is almost as if my middle self trying to be a very good person self, got focused on the lower self, so I began taking an aweful lot of 'hits' energy meanness that I presume most people mostly ignore.

then there is the higher range. It is easy to be there sometimes, but con fusion still comes in. Because how on earth can this person who just said that very mean thing and threw a fit... actually an Angel? because we are all divine, and we all focus a greater awareenss of divine connection in this higher self within us... and we are all learning to integrate the body centered life and thoughts we are...l with this more eternally aware self.

In the grand scheme of things, it isn't hell. It is karma, it is the process of learning to integrate divergent awareness and experience within one life. that is the magic of this body, this self, this existence.

No problem can be resolved from the order of magnitude at whcih it was created.

this is not really a radical thought, basically, when paradigms break down, they cannot be turned to to understand WHY they are breaking down. We have to surrender, and go deeper.

the health care system America has lived in is totally inadequate, and relating it to the rest of the world is not the issue. There are obvious advantages to the ways in which other countries THINK about healht.

Namely, if you put healthcare into a capatilist model, health providers, like any merchant, have a vested interest in people returning again and again. this is the normal force that encourages merchants to do a good job... if they do not, theyn their ccustomers won't come back! Simple really, the conservatiove mantra for reality. It has merit.

Except of course if doing a good job means your clients don't come back.

think about it. If a doctor really works with a person in a way that makes them totally well, so well they go beyond what we know of as well... they loose money.

so the financial structure of medecine in this country sucks. It sets forces against each other in the more confusing time for money paradigm.

There is not way to reform insurance companies and payment strcutures to change this. We need to create an alignment in the forces at hand.

the only way I can see to do THAT is to give a different focus oto healht.

Convert insurance companies to healht CLUBS. these clubs are the only institution invovled that has a vested interest in keeping the costs down. So give them MORe responsibility.

We need to challenge ourselves to go beyond what we have known as health. If we presume that we will naturally be getting sick rhythmically, well we will get sick rhythnmically. this is a core gift of some alternative (note the ridicualous word, poised in rlation to the mainstream confusion, still attached to it) medecine.

How we thinkm and feel shapes our health.

well if tis is so. Fuck that IT IS io, since this is so, we need to set dreams, intentions, commonly shared prayers, to become essentially super human.

I realize this is neracking for gernerations that saw hitler and the nazis go insane. but they... well they went nuts. they felt our potential, and got very convused, and didn't have all sorts if intentions and advantages we do have now.

Now, we need to rethink what is going on.

the steps to embrace, to embdoy the multiple fascets of our human existence that can make us healthy on orders of mmagnitude more levesl than riding ourselves of colds... is upon us. to be able to run for ridiculouslengths of time, to see with vision well beyond what we've known as possible, to channel healing energy strong enough to heal each other, and even the mutilated land and water around us...

These are THEY SAMe prayers that will help heal the finanical morass. the confusion of insurance companies and HMOS and fibnancial profiting on sickness are all woven in the very foundations of how we imagine a body, a soul our minds, and life here on earth.

Keep it simple.



Healht clubs become intnentional groups that pool money to pay yoga teachers, energy workers, doctors and shamans to work together to create health. They all get paid fine, and are woven into the community. The incentives shift to helping the community thrive. And then we begin to take off. it isn't a zero sum, it isn't a normal, this keep s going. learn to be so healhty we eliminate migraines, and flue, and even cancer... okay, keep going. the same community learns to pray more deeply, support each other more efficiewntly. the individuals train in the simple healing modalities and take care of each other... its a whole new model for healht, and it doesn't END. the healtier we get, the more we can explore, and discover new ways to shine in this life.

Yesterday I was singing at the Wellsprings, in Ashland. Katia was in, for Ladies night, and I rested with the trees. Its a hippie stronghold, a haven for the grateful dead. there is a sense of family pride, wisdom, in the flow of keeping hopes alive for decades. I'd come before, a month ago. There was an open mic night, and I got a migraine. no accident I'm sure, and yet there was the pain, real as ever, and I just didn't want to cut through it to sing. why? I didn't feel afraid. maybe it covered it up. At this point it is ridiculous. I've been incubating so long I'm twice toasted. too old to bring in something new? but it feels so damn alive, so unbelievably vibrant. The spirit that is singing through is yearning to be. At the end of the flow I lost my concentration. when I do that, what comes through is often not really a statement i am making, but a statement that is being thought AT me. This is hard to describe unless you try it. 'The ancient forces you represent need to compromise...' a very odd statement... I followed it up with ' 'draw down the mooon....' I feel ancient magic waking up through me. I feel the flow of life lifting, and a window to a open world shivering and creaking enough for fresh air to get in. I wish I knew how to say more. please listen to this. http://kaiya.podbean.com/2009/10/20/eye-of-the-storm/