Love

I have been excited to lkearn how to 'see' psychicially over the past ten years or so. It was very hard at first, and over time, it has gotten more interesting.

However over the past while, I have been seeing passion and violence all around, particuarly with people I love.

My theory has been that we all have rage, and the way our cultural patterns work, we pit that energy against each other in 'less' violent patterns, and it balances... somewaht. sports, games, even the way we do business allows this rage to have a home, so to speak. it isn't ideal. we aren't really fostering love, but we work through it.

And I can't do those things anymore. I can't invest in dreaming for others to fail. It makes things worse. So I stopped, and as I stopped, I feel this violence world.

The closest explanation I have seen has been in the Tibetan book of the dead. they speak of the 'bardos' the worlds between life and death, where beings of extraordinary pleasure, and beings of wrath, await us. The goal is to stay dis, un, invested in their energy. To stay centered.

I have seen this all around. The pleasure, and the wrath. It is geting difficult to deal with. I have to be more and more centered, like deep within an eye of the storn.

I have noticed that when I see, sense feel it most, I am actually out of my body. I have tension I don't need, I am not breathing fully. It is very consistent. and there is not another connection between what is happening. I'm not mad, or desireous. Its just flashing by.

In the Tibetan tradition, we must pass through the Sensual gods, who are kind and full of pleasure. but if we getr wrapped into participating in their feelings, we will drown and get lost. then we face the gods of wrath, and face every imaginable horror... and must again stay centered, till we face the Lord of death, who blancers our deeds, and sends us on.

From there we choose our new life, by watcing couples making love. we feel their energy and choose a home. We are exposed to the love that reflects our lifetime, our choices, our deeds.

I haven't seemed to pass the lord of Death yet. I;'m just cycling through the first two again and again. Like I'm stuck.

Two hundred years after Darwin cracked the religious paradigms... we need to crack his.

I am learning that the contemporary understanding of 'his' tory is complete bullshit.

we have been isolated behind a veil. an E veil if you will, an electrical haze. we were put here to forget. to let go of our old ways, and to rechannel them.

to 'get' this fully, you have to begin to break down polarity. At first glance, because its been pounded into us, it seems that we exist between opposites, poles if you will. male female, good bad, hot cold... etc.

But actualloy, this, also, is bullshit. Lets start with hot and cold. They aren't real. they are perspectives. they are ideas that exist in relation to a norm. One direction, and another direction.

If we weren't sitting at one spot, we wouldn't see this or that.

So to get out? New trail;. At firest this seems to be the point in between the poles. but it becomes somewhat like the entry in the movie Labyrinth, where the wall seems to be solid but from just the right angle... you can see its depth, and walk right into another path.

How COULD there be anything but hot and cold? Why, there is EVERYTHING. There is wet, smooth, fast... open... bright.... these are all different elements that exist whether we believe in them or not... so just keep believing and the stuckness, the bounce between two points, diminishes.

Feel both poles, and let them meld as they're grasp balances, and pushes open the new trail.

What have I been learning? I've been learning that we have been here for a long time, and that earth has been covered in life of so many forms,. that world upon world EXIST here, and have existed, and millions of years of evolution are just a sliver of a perspective. So much has been going ON during all that time. so many civilizations, of bugs of angels of lumerians of birds, of spirits and of unnamed watchers. We just haven't seen them.

Why? because we've been horses with blinders. we have been veiled, purposefully, by our own Angelic assent. so we'd create the Gaian form that is about to be revealed.

Economic collapse? pish pash. We are just knocking down the scaffolding. I do it most nights. I chant down babylon, and the ripplies fly out and butterfly effect through the morphogenic fields and hit the roots of the 'tower?>' the scaffolding... and it'll fall, and we shall trust, and you just wait to see what is revealed.

Its fun, I know that much.

I can feel it in y bones.

Love