Troubling

Last night I had a dream. I'll blame facebook really. though most of the people there are not 'into' the life I am breathing, I have gathered friends from every phases of my life. It is really quite amazing. I can share where I am, what I care for, and feel like it reaches... well... all of me. Despite the fact that it feels like junkfood energy, I'm grateful to have the connection to my whole being, it helps me feel more whole.

so last night I dreamed that two people who have nothing to do with each other other than me... from totally different phaes of my life, were inviting us, me and those I live with now, to go visit a waterfall. This seems lovely. At first I hesitated because we couldn't get there... it was near 'another school'. then I turned and one of my present housemates said they were driving and wanted to go! perfect.

As we came close, I 'saw' a wire high up in the sky. It had a little flag on it. I 'looked' at the flag, and it was like tuning into a vibe, which said 'you'll have to hear all their fantasies'

I woke in turmoil, feeling a fantasy, about me, that didn't feel good at all.

I have been feeling such things for a long long time, and I am very tired.