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October 2009 
My Bio, for now : )
Posted on Jul 2nd, 2009
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Kaiya
Kaiya
Daniel Kaiya Fuson (Shedd)
Childhood
I was born in D.C. and moved to Ithaca New York shortly thereafter. My parents wre grad students, with amazingly tender hearts, and progressive values. We didn't have a ton, but there wre children everywhere, and I was consistently exploring and enjoying community, whether it was the student housing we lived in, or the church we were a strong part of.
I had a huge desire to not be told what to do, which my parents mostly indulged. I had five major sugeries over the course of my young lifeand some trauma that left me with years of fears, and incredibly extreme, often haunting visions.
Partly to avoid these feelings I retreated into books. i loved OZ, and prayed to go there for a very long time. My imagination was vivid a strong gift of the chaos, the greater purpose of it.
Young Adulthood
High school was full of friendship, and fight. I couldn't stand being told what to do by then. The balance I'd worked out in my family was strong, but it didn't flow in school. I was marked by deep kindness with friends, and cold distance with teachers. I just didn't like being told how and what to think, it hurt my soul, and I couldn't explain that clearly.
My survival technique was to aim for B pluses, which I followed all the way to college in Connecticut. To my suprise, I thrived in the small school setting, and the systems in place. I enjoyed having purpose outside my studies, and developed intensely on the student honor board.
Cannabis became a part of my life here, where to my suprise, i was able to be a peademaker and insightufl guide to others, largely with it as a catalyst, to open my 'in'sight. It remains an ally, having repeatedly helped me open doors that stayt open when it isn't present.
I learned to play guitar, and built on highschool drama experience to sing, writting songs at each critucal turning point. It was medicine for me, and I rarely shared it, though I sometimes wanted to, something about it just didn't work in public, I was being taght to contain my energy.
Ibegan to get very unusual hiegtened sensations, along with odd ego trips that I already 'knew everything' thoughts I didn't know how to incorporate. My emotions were very strong, and I often dealt with them alone.
New York City
I was plopped down in NYC without understanding what I was doing. Job and apt just appeared, and a dawning sense of being 'guided' emerged for me. I learned to work with the web, and built confidence to be creating my life well. My partner and I befriended wonderful young couples, and were exposed to a 'successful life' in the big city.
Perhaps uncoincidentally it was following a weekly poiker game that I began to receive extremely direct guidance. I wrote it down, and it came again the next day. Over the course of the next year, I compiled a little guidebook of short, simple insights that essentially helped me unravel the foundations of polarity, along with my desire to 'succeed' in a life so divorced from nature, from my natual self, and from the extreme beauty I was learning in the most magial way I knew.
Outloud, I upped the ante, got an agent, and was again handed a job, this time well beyond my expectations. A .com startup, design firm, with tons of freedom, fun events, and 'upward mobility'. I had my own corner office just off Wallstreet. I'd 'made it'. It did nothing for me, and I felt myself dying inside.
I began delving deeper into my guidance, and exploring the ideasonline. this began to pull me out of my work, and I evnetually cracked. Left the job. Within a month I had another, same setting and all else. I immediately freaked out, and landed back in Ithaca, dejected, my 'perfect life' in shambles.
Right of Passage
In retrospect, it seems clear the world was giving me a transition into a spirtual life as an adult. Lacking the forms in our own society, we rigged one up together as I faced deep demons while insistently striving for a better life, for joy, for the peace that was dawning in my awareness. The strain was terrifying, but the results were clear. I died to who I'd been, and lost all desire to thrive within that life.
I stared into the sun at dawn, and new I was a new being.
I clearly felt guided to accept, that the world works with what we have at hand, we just have to be open to it. I began studying Yoga and meditation, and moved into my newly vacated grandparents house, just west of the G.W. Bridge. I lived there with my dog Ariel and cat Sadie, slowly learning to rennovate it while playing music, and learning to Dance. Periods of intense curiousity culminated in the realization that life is too wonderful to spend time doing anything but my souls calling, making love in life.
The Ego death was very difficult, and uncovered layer upon layer of attachement, trauma, and confusion. All of it was guided by joy however, and the will to live lead me to begin to truly feal my body, emotions, and the passion it takes to create a life worth living.
As I released the Klipatch, the husk of my old life, I slowly uncovfered windows into a whole new way of being, part of the world. This lead me within, to repair my broken heart, and then to explore the feelings and sensations that a broken heart teach, eventually leading to the chakras.
Carolyn Myss guided me through a simple and clear introduction, that validated my awakening perceptions, and gave basic tools to begin working with these centers. I continued to practice Yoga heavily, and learned to sing, free flowing music that were prayers for a new life. This form could contain the passion I was feeling in side.
I studied Reiki and Yoga at Kripalu, and began to dance with an 'Urban Shamanism' subculture of New York. Apprecnticed with a Shamanic instrument maker, and began fasting. Lerned to prayerform musical flows, which I insisted on freestyleing despite serious failures... and because of extreme highs available to this form. I served as a New ork city teaching Fellow in the Central Bronx, where I collided head on with beurocracy, and eventually lost.
Went to Burtning Man where I worked out my extremes, finally finding a home for intensities that had drowned me for years. Then I visited New Orleans, where my grandparents relocated, and found a hom ethere I didn't know I had..... my uncle has lived there since my birth, and nothing compares to dancing in the New Orleans streets during Mardi Gras!
Was introduced to several healers, some of whom I fell in love with, as they taught me to open myself further to the remarkable range of gifts present right under our nose, in prana. This lead me to an urban Peyote Church Circle, where I was able to surrender a serious addiction to my mind, into the darknest of the sweat lodge and Tepee ceremony. I was humbled y these gifts in a way that still brings tears to my eyes. To be given medicine I dearly needed, by a culture that our own, has virtually annihilated. These experiences exposed me to the possibility of channelling emotions, and the passion they awaken, consciously. Learning to create a loving reality.
Exploration
Following this path further, I travelled with a partner to the Tree of Life, in Patagonia Arizona. We were blessed to be a part of this young community that seeks to integrate the spiritual truths of many traditions, all of which had been a part of my life, seperately. Yoga, Chanting, Conscious (Live) Veganism, Native Sweat Lodges, Shabbat ceremonies, healing sessions... and a weekly dance I guided. Many rays of Earth magic were present, and it created a very powerful space to learn and detoxify.
From there we journied to Califonria, LA. Quickly integrated with a dance community there, and followed a strange progression of connections within a very abusive family. After six months of this, my life completely changed once again.
We came to a gathering in the mountains west of LA, where Melvin Betselle, the Dine Teppe guide from the Bronx, was on a roster at 'The Gathering of The Shamans'.Upon arrival, it was clear I 'had something to do'. I prayed with Melvin, and 'realized' that it was my job to hold the fire. There WAS no fire, but four grandmothers had had the same dream, all calling for fire (in the No fire black Bear mountains, dry as a tinderbox). Hundreds of natural healers from around the planet gathered, in a place with no fire!
Stayed with it all night long... and kept it building, till it was a proper size. In the morning, everyone gathered, and they asked me to stay right where I was, thanked me, and named me fire keeper. It had been a haunting night, with spontaneous healing, song, and lots of people trusting me in a way that cannot be explained. Deeply sacred, like I was being handed a torch, as a little white manin the presence of deep elders.
Immediately following this, I returned east, as my grandfather was dying. I faced even more demons deeply rooted in my family history, and uncovered the core of my childhood trauma. It was very difficult, melted my illusions and confusions at the same time... and left me choosing to be alive. Upon return to LA, it all unraveled, and prayers lead me to a Yoga training with Ana Forrest.
Upon completion, It was clear I had to disconnect from what I'd known to follow my path alone. It was terrifying, but my partner had already gone back east, and we let the seperation stand. I went north. The Bay blessed me deeply receiving me in this deep change with friends,m and places to stay, exposing me to the conscious language, and support of holistic community on levels I didnt know existed. I spent time in Harbin, Berkeley, and lived on a houseboat in Oakland. Explored sacred intimacy with The Human Awareness Institute, and joined a circle of brothers who brought me back into my roots.
Emergence as a Healer
Throughout these times, I was developing my awareness as an energetic intuitive. Learning to feel and move energy. Learning to follow angelic guidance in relation to dis-ease... learning to discern my own karma, my own 'stuff' from the people who I served, a challenge that remains a teacher and catalyst for growth - we heal with those who carry harmonic energies. I studied formally with seveal signifcant Yoga teachers, energy workers, and Cermonial Leaders. These and other teachers helkped me to connect more deeply with my own guidance, and trust myself with the Flow of Love.
Eventually, the throes of city life became too much again, and I went further North, first to live with a remarkable family in the Redwoods, and then further up, to Mt Shasta. I went through a remarkable sequence of healing, and connection to etheric beings who live within the moutnain.
My awareness of energetic 'undercurrents' was so strong and chaotic that I broke in a prayer circle, saying the fighting and rage were unnacceptable. I have rarely cried so deeply, and found myself filled with a security as I rose, and began speaking in a lovely language, clearly calming and blessing me. This connection openeed me to a very deep and powerful joy, where violence and rage did not seem possible - Crystaline, Christ Consciousness. I had touched upon it several times, but had been very out of balance. This time I felt 'caught' linked, and changed permanently. The blessings remain with me to this day, as the beings continue to guide me.
And then I met Katia. We were blessed deeply there and charged to go out into the world and carry a light of awakening for the community. The blessing has been a deep challenge. Time and again we have been confronted with the barriers to shifting the culture, within ourseelves, enough to hold space for the new love that is coming into being.
We've lived in the forest, and on the Ocean, in the deep heat, and through blistering winters, on the streets, in jail, in the jungle, in river valley(s) and on the road. The energy repeatedly overwhels as the heightened poweres of attraction call in, and repel people, things and circumstances at an alarming rate. All the while, we are being taught to live in a new energy field.
A while into our journey together, we found ourselves drawn back to th Bay, where we worked at Vara Healing Arts in North Berkely. Here I reconneted with the Ancient Secret of the Flower of life, books that have come and gone in my life many times over the years. I was drawn specifically to one section, that introduced an Egyptian Chakra system.
By this point I was adept at 'seeing' energies, empowered by my choice to remove my corrective vision. With the natural balance of my body, I have become more aware of what is here, whether we want to believe it or not. The chakras unfold like flowers to me, living moving swirls of light, that 'talk' about the balance and potential in each person I work with.
The colors are a language unto themself. I discovered my capacity to 'tune into' them, and receive messages, a fairly common approach among energy healers. When I wove this withmy budding knowledge of musical theory, and the Egyptian energy system of 13 chakras introduced by the Ancient Secret of the flower of life, things 'clicked'.
As we left Berkeley, the guidance deepened and I found messages coming through Katia, entering during dreamtime, and sliding into my presence during meditation at an alarming rate. I began writting, and the process of writting has helped me solidfying what I';m learning, still.
I've continued to practice, often with katia, as we went through costa Riki, and then returned to my home town, where we now live in a community farmhouse nearby. We practice yoga, meditate, pray with our music, tend a lovely garden, and continue to unfold our paths.
It is far more natural for me to tune my energy now, to transform stuck feelings into flow, to release confusion, and to intentionally create a balanced state of being from which I can serve, and create. These are skills that enable me to help you as well. To enliven your dreams, and address the blocks and stuck feelings that inhibit everyone from stepping fully into life.
In my experience, the intention to create something wonderful is only possible if we choose to release the pains and confusion of the past. Creating a new life, and healing the past rhythms go hand in hand. It is my joy to 'hold space' for you in this transformation. To share my awareness, and some of the tools that have enabled me to transform my self, face and dissolve my relationship to woundedness, and open into an increasingly beautiful lifre.
I look forward to sharing more.
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